So I am going to start this year off with a blog.I have a lot of stuff floating around in my head and I don't know how to get them out other than putting them into tangible form.I'm too much of a wimp to actually write these things down so I figured what safe place than the Internet?!Am I right?Yeah well I have so much to blog and I don't even know who would want to read.But I guess I'm just doing this for me right?Sort of like a time capsule.Hopefully I'll be changed and I won't need to come here to hide and rant.Maybe one day I might be able to express all that I feel with my own voice.A loud unafraid confident voice.Still working on that.Also still working on a new me!Exercising and doing sports and drama :)

So I think I should start explaining about myself to..well whoever(in some random misfortune0is reading this.My name Is Sylvia Jimenez.Due to a long complicated story that I will slowly be blogging I ended up living in the desert with my grandpa and three siblings.I love writing poetry and drawing and blasting music till my ears hurt.I am eighteen and a senior in high school.I want to help children or animals in the future.I also want to be an all round better person some day.So much stronger than I am now.I'm the type of person who can be stuck on the same song all day and wrestle with my friends in the dirt.I love sign language and colorful socks.

People are my interest.I have this need to understand the people around me.I ask a lot of questions but also watch most of the time.I rarely let people in close enough to see me whoever I am.I know I have huge trust issues and tend to block out people out who put me out of my comfort zone.People who kiss and hug make me uncomfortable be it couples,friends,or family members( my own).I can't be very close physically to people without cringing inside and try to pretend everything is okay.I don't like people to touch my skin.It's either to painful or too intimate to handle.

I spend too much time at school and I love anything to do with nature and adventure.I have a bucket list somewhere I can't find,and I'm a huge procrastinator.I also get bored easily and space out into my own world constantly.I don't have time for most people,but somehow make time for the ones I love.I love living in the moment and do everything to avoid thinking about tomorrow.I'd rather read than party,and to be honest I'm terrified of intimacy of any kind.I love baking at midnight,waking up at 3am and paint,and singing at the top of my lungs.I love food and chocolate milk.I love drama.Acting is pretty awesome for me.I hate when people touch me and I'm not very affectionate.I am currently under construction of my own genius! I laugh really loud and blood makes me uncomfortable.I'm also terrified to death of being kidnapped.

I can't think of much else to say about myself other than I'm hungry for something.Something I'm not sure how to find.Something is still missing and I am scared to find out hat exactly.